I graduated college eight months ago. Looking back, I cannot BELIEVE how fast those four years flew right on by me. I walked into my empty, depressing dorm room that first day as a timid 18-year-old who had NO clue what college life looked like. I was completely unprepared for the years ahead of me. I can still feel the subdued excitement and nerves that radiated throughout my hall on that first move-in day. It was crazy!
I fully believed that I wouldn’t make one friend during my time there, and I KNEW that I’d probably give up after the first semester of this nonsense. Luckily, my fears turned out to be unfounded.
College taught me an incredible amount about myself–who I really wanted to be and who I did NOT want to be, how to think for myself, how to turn bad situations into better ones. I made some great friends and made some really incredibly stupid, ignorant decisions, as well.
As I look back on those years that are somehow now locked into the past, a few things stand out that I seriously really do miss. A lot.
- Knowing that sweats and t-shirts are life — no explanation needed.
- Freshman year — oh man. How on earth did I feel a need to be stressed out that first year? I don’t even know. But I DO know that it was the most relaxing and spontaneous time of my college years. So much free time to hang out with friends and enjoy pretty near everything college has to offer.
- Naps — these are acceptable little pleasures in college. No one tells you this, but once you’re NOT in college anymore, their acceptability somehow greatly diminishes.
- Knowing that Nutella is life — it is! Was? It just is, alright?
- Being surrounded by people my age — campus was a never-ending opportunity to make friends and be around people who were up for anything at any hour of the day. Those were some great times.
- Having to study — Let’s be honest. The ever-present prompting in the back of your head telling you of your need to do homework and write papers and practice is death. It is not nice. But now, after knowing for the first time since I was like five years old what it feels like NOT to have school as the major part of my life, it’s a little sad. And I kinda miss having to study.
- Feeling like the future is a blank page — I love my life now. But there’s something I miss about that question of the future, like What will I be? Who will I become? Where will I go? I know not all of these questions have been laid to rest, but things are definitely more set in stone now than they were then.
- Being able to justify eating at any time of day or night — snacks at 1 in the morning? No big deal. I mean, you do what you have to in order to get through those cram sessions.
- Having energy — I don’t know why, but my energy has left me high and dry. College was a wellspring of endless energy allowing me to stay up all night and be fine the next day. Now? Is 9:30 an okay bedtime for an early twenty-something?